Happy Belated Merry Xmas and Training +2 Days

Well after taking a couple of days off  for the holidays, I must say its been a rough 2 days of training since the holidays. Ever sit there on a trainer or a treadmill or whatever you do for inside training. And sit there and ask yourself: "What in the hell am I doing?" Not that the kind of what the hell am I doing, and contemplating giving up. But more of what the hell am I doing in the garage when it's 32 freaking degrees. Yea that's the What the hell I was contemplating. So for me I think WAAAAYYY to much and I over think things as well. For instance the day after Christmas, I get myself on my trainer, and I am pumped and ready to do some sweet spot training. If you don't know what that is, basically its a uncomfortable cadence while pedaling right below what is called your FTP (Fictional Threshold Power). So its not death cycling, but its just enough pain to know it's there and bothering you but it's something you can sustain for about an hour with out dying.

Basically its the building blocks of your endurance, while getting in some leg strengthening at the same time. So as I am having a tough time just trying to keep this sweet spot level and I am struggling. In my head it's like being super man, and something in my garage is Kryptonite, and hindering me from keeping my power. Needless to say I struggled for one hour on my trainer begging for it to be over with, because I'm disgusted with myself. I guess a lot goes through my mind, about CMT. Every time I can't keep power or I am doing horrible I think that CMT is the cause and I will never get the power I used to have. Am I the only one who has those thoughts? Then I have to tell myself that I am crazy and that it was that whole two months I took off from any training, and all the glutting eating I did in that time as well. Though I have such a great support group, they're always there to help me get my mind right and get focus back on training. My BFF/coach, is always telling my that there is always peeks and valleys. So my question to him is when will I get back on my peek? Because I am tired of being in this valley, a VERY big valley at that.

I didn't let it get me down, I am not a person who gives up, though I do get upset at myself, and I tell myself that I have push harder next time. I knew when I decided that I was going to train for an IronMan that there was going to be a lot of rough days, and honestly I'd rather get rid of those rough days now in the early stages of training than 10 to 11 months from now.

Anyways I the past two days I did manage to survive and get past those two horrible days. Tomorrow will probably be a gym or work out in my coaches garage. I definitely need some gym time, since I am trying to cut weight more. Speaking of cutting weight, I really had a good talk with my Coach, in regards to my BAD eating habits, One of my problems with food is portion control, I tend to get more then I am supposed to, but I am Hispanic and it's in our blood to pile tons of food on our plates and gorge ourselves to death. Yea that's what I am going with and sticking with that. LOL Ok ok I do know better and I know I need to cut back Evan (AKA Coach). So I will start being more conscientious of how much food I am putting on my plate.

Well I think I am going to quit with my banter for the night, and forget about the last couple of days and move forward and work harder next time. So I hope everyone has had a great Christmas and didn't over eat like I did the last few days. As you can see I posted a couple of pictures, one of them is me begging for that one hour to be over with, and the other is what my power looks like. The yellow jagged line is me pedaling, and that solid blue line is where I am supposed to be.

DON'T JUDGE ME!



-Jaime